By the time you read this, I am probably already facing the exams that will determine whether my careers will proceed positively or not.
Why I am having mixed feelings or why I feel everything is still very funny. Lol.
Still no valid reason to writing this piece but one thing I know is that I am very confused about my current actions.
Personally, making mistakes are my greatest fears and sweetest lessons which is why I always enjoy my ribena after I finish sulking about one.
Am I writing gibberish now? Seems so.
Bottom line is I am scared. What if my decisions carry me to a dead end? Jesus Christ. I want to just faint. Hmm..
Too many thoughts clouding my mind……..
But surprisingly, I am very relaxed too. I pick up my books to read, watch comedy and still have my personal meditation in check. This feeling is something I cannot explain.
My innermost being says ‘Be at peace and live Esther’.
Definitely what I am doing now. The ultimate.
Unofficially my first blog post of the year because something huge seems to be on the way.
Anyways, you have read my inner thoughts. I wish to express them through my blog anyways although I am scared I may get judged for this but whatever…
(whispers: follow my blog to see the reality of me, my career life and a pinch of my personal life)